i'm awfully sleepy. i should be sleeping. instead i'm writing on my blog.

I frequently blog about other people's ideas whether they come from books or songs etc., so I decided to post some original writing of my own every day this week.

She had a tendency to infatuate over broken people. That's why she never believed she would have a suitable mate. All the boys she "liked" had qualities that would only leave her broken in the process of a relationship. The end result would be two broken people. So she was constantly caught in a love limbo, knowing she should be inclined towards courteous mature boys but never being able to.

These few sentences were just meant to be characterization, but I ended up liking the tone of it and I'm working towards writing more material based around these ideas. A lot of the things I write about fictionally I have not personally experienced first hand. I like writing because it's a way to go outside of myself and view things from different perspectives. I do use a lot of my own feelings and philosophies in my writing, however. I really do have a way of gravitating towards those who seem lost in a way. I don't know why. It could possibly be the prospect of being a ray of light in someones life, but I know this is a terrible reason to go into anything. I am quite worried that this will be a downfall of mine when it comes to boys. This is a poem I wrote that sounds a little emo, but I thought it went well with the previous few sentences.

You removed the scab of lost love
only to let my heart bleed more
Sew it up
I want to make you feel like I do
But I gave you enough of me for you to know I never would
The lesson should have been learned
I only blame myself
The lesson was to not fall for you
But how could I have possibly not